Good-Byes SUCK

I hate saying goodbye to my husband. I hate it even more when its less than 4 month since my husband got home. I hate being away from him. We had problems and things were just starting to get better. I want him home for a long peirod of time. I want to just be with him. I miss him already and he hasnt been gone 24 hours. I hate the fact that the next time I will get to be with him is July. I know that I have to just deal with it (which BTW I'm good at) but I hate dealing! I would like to know what its like to really be married. You know where you're with your spouse consecutivly for a whole year and every night they come home. I've been with Ryan for going on 5 years and have NEVER known what its like to be with him all the time. I've been married for going on 3 years and have never spent a full year with him due to TDY's or deployments. I just want to know what it feels like to be married full time (when I say full time I mean together all the time) I hate being alone all the time. I love you Ryan just come home!