UGH!

So it decided to rain today. My window in the car is stuck in a down position (not all the way down just down enough to to get my seat soaked) so after going to the post office that "isn't a passport office" I had to go to the repair shop. So I get there around 11 and don't get home till about 1. This of course is without my car. I'm told that it will be ready about 4. Its now 5:19 and when I called my car won't be ready till about 6. Awesome! NOT! I have class at 5:30 so naturally I cant go because well I don't have a car for one and for two even if I had a ride the shop closes before school is over sooooo that doesn't work either. Oh and mind you I'm down $250.00 I need cough meds for Derek and I still haven't made it to the passport office. At least on the bright side I've gotten all the stuff priced for cash in the nursery & have sort of cleaned my living room. All in all its been a great day. HAHA yeah right! Oh and btw my husband's unit is out of control. They are killing me right now with their assumptions and drama!!

Good-Byes SUCK

I hate saying goodbye to my husband. I hate it even more when its less than 4 month since my husband got home. I hate being away from him. We had problems and things were just starting to get better. I want him home for a long peirod of time. I want to just be with him. I miss him already and he hasnt been gone 24 hours. I hate the fact that the next time I will get to be with him is July. I know that I have to just deal with it (which BTW I'm good at) but I hate dealing! I would like to know what its like to really be married. You know where you're with your spouse consecutivly for a whole year and every night they come home. I've been with Ryan for going on 5 years and have NEVER known what its like to be with him all the time. I've been married for going on 3 years and have never spent a full year with him due to TDY's or deployments. I just want to know what it feels like to be married full time (when I say full time I mean together all the time) I hate being alone all the time. I love you Ryan just come home!

Not Excited

I am not excited at all about tommorow. I hate the fact that not even 4 months after he got home he has to leave again for another 4.5 month deployment. This is crap!! I hate the fact that my husband is leaving AGAIN! I love being with him and less than 4 months isn't enough time to spend together. I'll be so glad when this deployment is over!! I can't wait for him to be home and he isn't even gone yet. The best part is we will be 100% debt free when he gets back. If all goes according to plan we will be getting a new car and going on our first cruise as a family. Im very excited about that. I guess I need to look at the outcome of this deployment isn't of the crappy part. Hopefully God willing we will get orders out of here in October!!

Working Out and So much more!

I bought a Wii today. I also purchases Wii Active. I didn't realize how out of shape I really was until today. I did the "low intensity" work out and by the end of the 20 minutes I was spent LOL. I did really well though and burned 70 calories which Im sure wasn't enough to work off that rice crispy treat I had before but whatever. Im going to eat better & work out a lot more so that I can look slammin. I've been tanning to add some color to my life which is exciting so working out & tanning should do a number for me. I'm wanting to get Wii fit & Wii fit plus but I have to find the Wii Fit before I can do anything else. Hopefully I'll find it at gamestop or something.

Went to the doctor today for my follow-up appt. She said my heartrate is fast but it slows down so she doesn't know why its high at times but everything looks good. I then told her that my back has been killing me much more so than usual. She took one look at my back and said yah you need to see somebody you made my back hurt just from looking at that. She said that a 30 degree curve is a signifant curve and doesn't understand why I haven't been refered to a scolsis specialist. Tommorw Im going for my x-rays and hopefully by the beginning of next month I'll be in with my orthepedic surgeun to find out the best course of action. Surgery is DEFINITLY my LAST option.

Derek has a doctors appt on Monday. He might have pica which isn't a good thing. I really did think that all kids ate dirt but apparently that isn't true. He has to have a lead screening done as well as an iron screening so for the first time my itty bitty is going to have to get blood drawn and honestly I don't know how I'm going to handle that. I am a huge puss when I have to get my own blood taken so how can I watch them do it to my son! I can't even hold him when he gets his shots due to my anxiety about shots. Its really bad my fear of needles. Yeah I can get tats but that is a whole different feeling. I guess Im just a vagina LOL. I just hope he doesn't have lead poisoning or anything. Maybe its just an iron deficiency. Fingers crossed

Good news my dining room is 95% complete. Just waitin on my nick nacks so I can post up pics.

I hate the cold

Today it was cold all day long! I hate cold weather & I hate being cold in general. Even my house was cold!! I can't wait for it to be warmer weather. Too bad that groundhog predicts 6 more weeks of winter. Maybe I can go to bartending class tommorow and be freezing so bad that my damn toes are numb. That would be awesome!

I'm very tired. This going to bed late and waking up early crap is really wearing me down. Tommorow I got another full day of school and then bartending class till 9. So basically I have school from 1 to 4 then 530 to 930. I hate Tuesdays. Good thing bartending class is over next week & I won't have that on my plate.It is going to be super awesome though to have my bartending certificate. Maybe during the summer I'll get a job or something. Who knows.

I finally got my table runner in! I was super excited about that. Now all I need is my table cloth and my dining room is one step closer to being complete. I (ok Kaye) found this amazing trash recprical storage container so I am thinking that I am going to purchase that move Derek's feeding supplies to under the microwave cart move Derek's old feeding supplies cabinet somewhere else and the put the rubbish container there. It has storage so its kind of a win win as seeing how right now I don't have anywhere to put my trash cans. We shall see though. I just really want my dining room to be done!!

We started looking at houses for rent again! I am thinking that its going to be the best option for us as seeing how we are here for an undetermined length of time and we are just really not feeling this super small house anymore. We are getting a king sized bed and honestly it isn't going to fit in our bedroom but of course we want a king and don't want to waste money buying a queen when we will end up with the king anyway. Its just a waste of money. Plus the you could say the security deposit is a "savings account" we've always gotten ours back so I'm not to worried about it. I'd love to find something with hardwood floors especially with a toddler.

Well more updates are soon to come!!